The first question people asked when I got married was “does anything feel different?” and naturally I would say “no, were just married now”, but five months in I can tell you that, everything feels different. Everything changed. Not in a bad way. I am more in love with this man than I have ever been in the 9 years we have been together. The thing about being married is that you finally get to just relax. When you’re boyfriend and girlfriend you’re wondering when you’ll be engaged. When you’re engaged you’re wondering when you’ll be married. Those little anxieties make it hard to just focus on love. You’re always anticipating what’s coming next but once you’re married, that’s it. You can just chill.
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Depression, in Color.
I used to be a very sad girl. Most days, I still am but I stopped being gray. I struggled a lot with self love, with the feelings of self worthiness, I struggled with starting. I always said well I’ll do this or that when i’m not sad anymore. I believed in my heart that one day my depression would just go away and that I would finally see in color again. I would love sunshine and sprinkles, I would wear colors other than just black and I wouldn’t be sad ever again. I convinced myself that the delusion of curing depression would come true if I just believed it long enough. SIKE. I had to put in the work, I had to add the color.
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